Sakshi Verkot was incorrigible. Even at the height of her cancer battle, the Indian expat would find the energy to mimic and mime and make her visitors laugh. “People who came to visit her thought they would be comforting a 16-year-old, but they were the ones who would walk away comforted,” says her mother, Binu Sivan.

Sakshi was 16 when she passed away last year. She had DSRCT, or desmoplastic small, round cell tumours, an aggressive type of cancer that forms in the connective tissue of the body.

“Like every parent, I’m prejudiced to thinking that she’s brilliant, joyful, etc. But since her passing, I have realised that her impact on the world around was even better than I had realised, just because of the person that she was: very kind and loving. And I didn’t even realise the impact until much later, when people would reach out to me with stories saying she did this for me, she said that to me,” the mother recalls.

When she was 14, Sakshi began to show certain symptoms — she had a lump on her forehead for a while, then she sprained her hip. Although she went to physiotherapy and it improved, a few months on, the pain returned. “It was 2020 and we were in Covid-19 quarantine,” recalls Binu. But once that was over, the rounds of hospital visits began. There were CT scans and conversations with doctors, but no comprehensive diagnosis until they met a neurologist who said both lump and limp troubles were related. After MRIs, they finally knew what they were facing. An extremely rare disease, DSRCT was only identified as a separate condition in 1989. There is little literature on the disease and poor prognosis for the fighters. Sakshi was given a seven per cent chance.

"She was put on chemo. The associated chemo (a borrowed protocol) is among the toughest in the world. Normally, after a chemotherapy session, a person’s immunity level comes down, then it gets better. Then you have your next chemo session. When it’s really bad that’s when you have something called neutropenic fever, which is a very serious condition because immunity is low and it can send one into septic shock. Sakshi, who was under the P6 protocol, got neutropenic fever after every chemo treatment.”

From January to November 2021, she took chemotherapy and her cancer reduced. “It looked like we were going to beat it; we were quite gung ho,” says her mother. But then she had to have a surgery called Hyperthermic Intraperitoneal Chemotherapy (HIPEC) surgery. “This is a very specialised surgery. Because basically it means, opening up the abdomen, removing the cancer and giving the abdomen a hot chemo wash,” she explains.

Through it all, Sakshi’s attitude remained positive, says Binu. “Obviously, she had bad days because she was only 15. Everybody was doing things and she was stuck here, losing her hair, her eyebrows; she loved makeup and loved to dress up. She loved theatre and to act on stage. All of that was affected,” she adds.

In January 2022, Sakshi was recovering from brain radiation and she was on a chemo protocol as well. “The idea was to continue with this chemo for a few more months after she had abdominal radiation, and then get on to maintenance chemo and be done. But then in February 2022, she started to get terrible headaches. And in March, weakened, she fell a few times.”

“In the middle of all this, she also went and attended her junior prom, and was crowned the prom queen. She did very well in her tenth examination. Her photo came in the papers and all that stuff,” says a proud Binu.

“Then there was fluid build-up in her brain and a shunt had to be put in to drain it. Then, she began to have trouble with her vision. The dizziness and headaches returned. But she would still squint at her phone and put Sephora orders on it,” recalls Binu. And though her hearing was failing, she would listen to Harry Styles and Maneskin. By April, Sakshi was on a wheelchair.

“By June 28, they did another spinal tap to see the progress of the disease. Once cancer gets into the spinal fluid, unless it is leukaemia, there’s no treatment. Basically, there’s nothing you can do. So the doctors called us and told us, ‘we can’t do anything’. But we were still fighting for some solution. I think we did more research in one-and-a-half years than most people do in a lifetime. We heard about this medication that they were trying out in the US. We even spoke to the research scientist; we tried a variation of that medication. On July 5, she was admitted to a hospital for this treatment. She had one session — it was a Tuesday. That night she had a cardiac arrest around one in the morning and went into coma. The next afternoon, she passed away.”

But this is not where Sakshi’s story ends. She continues to impact the world. She had a gift for bringing people together, says her mother. She held no grudges; she made friends with her bully and she made the best of her situation.

A year after her passing, her school, GEMS Modern Academy, held a theatre festival in her honour. “Sakshi’s passion was infectious. She was the first in class and invariably the last to leave. I distinctly remember how her notebook was her cherished treasure and how her zest for improv performances in class brought out the best in all of us. I vividly remember the gleam in her eyes upon learning of the introduction of the Modern Middle school theatre festival, where she and her friends were to mentor the young thespians,” says drama teacher Sheldon John Dias.

“On the day we gathered for her memorial service in school, the thought dawned on us that the most poignantly fitting tribute to her passion for the stage would be to encourage, to nurture and to celebrate theatre in the school. When the idea was pitched to our Principal, Mrs Nargish Khambatta, she suggested that this could be the start of a legacy project, and thus, The Sakshi Verkot Memorial Theatre Festival was born.”

Fondly remembering a favourite student, Khambatta says, “Our Sakshi was full of beans, so immersed in drama and theatrics that her friends and her drama teacher Mr Sheldon decided to honour her memory by hosting The Sakshi Verkot Memorial Drama Festival. They all put in hours and hours of work with their teachers to ensure everything would be just as Sakshi would have liked it. That day was magical! Not a soul had dry eyes that evening.”

Anouschka Bhat, Sakshi’s friend, recalls her as a gregarious person who loved to dress up. “One of my favourite memories with Sakshi is the night we dressed up as Mario and Luigi for Halloween. It was really fun and since she loved doing makeup and costumes it turned out great. We ended up getting so much candy. I cherish that memory dearly,” she says.

“It was her greatest wish and ambition to become a star,” Binu says. She and her family have started working on a foundation called Sakshi’s Joy Foundation in India, which will help underprivileged paediatric cancer patients get the treatment that’s necessary. And it’ll push for research in little-known diseases. “We have to talk about it,” she says.

For the mirth she brought into people’s lives when she was alive and for the lasting memories she left behind, Sakshi will continue to be her parents’ pride and a youth icon among her peers. There is no doubt that through their joint efforts, her legacy will live on. She will be a sakshi (testimony) to good life even after her passing.

Culled from Khaleej Times